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  THE PURE IN HEART

  THE RISK OF DARKNESS

  THE VOWS OF SILENCE

  THE SHADOWS IN THE STREET

  THE BETRAYAL OF TRUST

  A QUESTION OF IDENTITY

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  MRS DE WINTER

  THE MIST IN THE MIRROR

  AIR AND ANGELS

  THE SERVICE OF CLOUDS

  THE BOY WHO TAUGHT THE BEEKEEPER TO READ

  THE MAN IN THE PICTURE

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  THE SMALL HAND

  A KIND MAN

  BLACK SHEEP

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  HOWARDS END IS ON THE LANDING

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  Contents

  By The Same Author

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Part One

  One

  Two

  Three

  Four

  Five

  Part Two

  Six

  Seven

  Eight

  Nine

  Ten

  Eleven

  Twelve

  Thirteen

  Fourteen

  Fifteen

  Sixteen

  Seventeen

  Eighteen

  Nineteen

  Twenty

  Twenty-one

  Twenty-two

  Twenty-three

  Twenty-four

  Twenty-five

  Twenty-six

  Twenty-seven

  Twenty-eight

  Twenty-nine

  Thirty

  Thirty-one

  Thirty-two

  Thirty-three

  Thirty-four

  Thirty-five

  Thirty-six

  Thirty-seven

  Part Three

  Thirty-eight

  Thirty-nine

  Forty

  Forty-one

  Forty-two

  Forty-three

  Forty-four

  Forty-five

  Forty-six

  Forty-seven

  Forty-eight

  Forty-nine

  Fifty

  Fifty-one

  Fifty-two

  Fifty-three

  Fifty-four

  Fifty-five

  Fifty-six

  Fifty-seven

  Fifty-eight

  Fifty-nine

  Part Four

  Sixty

  Sixty-one

  Sixty-two

  Sixty-three

  Sixty-four

  Sixty-five

  Sixty-six

  Map

  About the Author

  To my friend Mrs Green

  (Candida Lycett Green 1942–2014)

  This novel is a work of fiction. Names and characters are the product of the author’s imagination and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

  PART ONE

  One

  APRIL 2007

  Lafferton, and a night in early spring. After a week of frosts, the wind had swung to the west, bringing milder air. Snowdrops and crocuses were over, daffodils were flowering. Quiet, empty streets. No footsteps.

  Jeff Barclay and Robbie Freeman sat on a low wall near the bus stop in the square, finishing off a shared kebab. They only had enough money for one, and a tea. Robbie screwed up the greasy paper and lifted his arm to throw it into a nearby bin. But his arm froze in mid-air.

  ‘What?’

  ‘Bloody hell.’

  ‘What?’ Jeff shoved him so that he almost fell off the wall. Robbie did not protest or shove back, he just stared at the entrance to the Lanes, the cobbled pedestrian-only street to their left.

  ‘Shit, did you see that?’

  ‘Didn’t see anything. What was it – a ghost?’ Jeff snorted.

  ‘No.’ Robbie said quietly, getting off the wall and walking towards the Lanes. ‘I saw a kid.’

  ‘What sort of kid?’

  ‘A little kid. It … it had no clothes on.’

  ‘You’re taking the piss. I never saw any naked kid.’

  Jeff levelled with him as they reached the top of the Lanes. There were old-fashioned lamps at either end and a couple of shops had lighted front windows. The whole street was empty.

  ‘Stupid.’

  ‘No. I saw it. There was a little kid, it sort of – just ran and then it vanished.’

  ‘Yeah, right. Come on, let’s see if there’s anyone outside the Magpie.’

  But Robbie was walking slowly away from him, looking closely to right and left. In the end, Jeff followed.

  ‘How could there be a kid?’

  ‘I know what I saw.’

  ‘What are you on, Rob? You start seeing things, you got a problem.’

  There was a passageway between the deli and a smart clothes shop, and as Robbie looked into it, he saw a quick movement – something pale. He ran down, but he had to push past two wheelie bins, and by the time he had got through, if there had been anyone, they’d gone.

  ‘Cat.’

  ‘No.’

  ‘You’re mad.’

  ‘No.’

  ‘Oh, for fuck’s sake! I’m off home.’

  It was another five minutes before Robbie followed him. They walked slowly along the kerb, thumbs out every time a vehicle went by. Not many did.

  ‘Wanker.’ Jeff gave two fingers to a speeding car. Robbie said nothing. His head was full of what he knew he had seen – not imagined, not hallucinated, seen. A child, maybe three or four years old, naked, slithering out of sight into the shadows, dodging down the alley and passageway. He couldn’t get it out of his mind.

  A patrol car took the call at twenty to three.

  PC Bev Willet sighed. ‘Wind-up,’ she said.

  ‘Sounds like it. But just in case – hold onto your hat.’

  It had been a quiet night. Even a wind-up was better than trying to keep awake with more plastic coffee. The car raced up the bypass.

  ‘How old did he say?’

  ‘Little kid, three or so. Couldn’t say if it was a boy or girl.’

  ‘And naked?’

  ‘Naked.’

  ‘They piss me off, these hoaxers. I’d have them dunked in the canal on a freezing night.�
� Bev snorted as she pulled up at the entrance to the Lanes. One taxi was in the rank, the driver asleep with a copy of the Sun over his face. He didn’t stir at the sound of the patrol car.

  ‘Talk to him in a mo. Come on.’

  Ten minutes later they had scoured the area, including every alley and passageway, every wheelie bin and recycling area.

  ‘Diddly squat,’ Bev said.

  ‘Pisses me off, this sort of thing.’

  ‘You said.’

  ‘Only why would he invent a naked child, for heaven’s sake?’

  ‘Guaranteed to make us move fast.’

  ‘Right. Just someone’s idea of a good laugh then. Better go and wake up our cabby.’

  But their cabby had been out on jobs all evening and then fallen asleep. He was going home now. He’d keep an eye out.

  ‘His face said it all.’

  ‘Wind-up.’

  ‘Wind-up.’

  Jess Honeywell’s baby woke for a feed at four. She picked him up out of his crib and moved the curtain aside briefly to look out at the night. Starry, with a big moon. A front-bedroom light was on a few doors down. Another wakeful baby. She and Katie Green sometimes chanced to look out at the same time and then they’d wave, sharing the small hours of new babies. They had propped one another up through pregnancy and the first weeks and went on doing so now, meeting almost every day, walking their buggies together, swapping notes. It had made all the difference. St Luke’s Road was in the grid of small Victorian terraced houses known as the Apostles, friendly, neighbourly, and near to the shops, coffee bars and restaurants of Lafferton’s centre. They were lucky, Jess thought as she dropped the curtain, even if the houses were small. She hated the idea of being stuck out in the sticks, even with bigger rooms and a garden, but no life nearby and needing a car to get you anywhere. They couldn’t afford a car. Matt walked to work.

  The Green bedroom was in darkness, the moon shining on quiet pavements, but as she turned, Jess thought she saw something move. Turned back and lifted the curtain again. No. Trick of the light. Nothing. And then her hand went to her mouth. Noah was grizzling himself back to sleep but she barely noticed.

  Matt was hard to wake and when he did, he stumbled out of bed assuming he had to pick up the baby and was almost able to do so in his sleep.

  He came awake fully as Jess shook his arm.

  ‘What? You’ve been dreaming –’

  ‘NO. Matt, go down, go out there … I was not dreaming. You’ve got to go.’ Noah cried again as her voice rose. She picked him up and sat on the edge of the bed, putting him to the breast and gesturing to Matt to hurry.

  It was not that he refused to believe her, just that he was still not fully awake, and he felt foolish, standing half dressed and in slippers, looking up and down St Luke’s Road and seeing nothing, Nothing at all. But she had been wide awake and he knew that she thought she had seen …

  And then he saw.

  The child was squatting down behind the gate of a house opposite.

  ‘It’s OK,’ Matt said. ‘It’s all right, it’s all right.’

  He went through the gate and stopped. Later, he said that he would never forget the child’s face until his dying day. Later, he could not sleep because the face was in front of him. Later, he was haunted during his waking hours by sudden flashbacks to the child’s face as it looked up at him.

  ‘It’s all right. Dear God. Listen, I won’t hurt you. I’m going to look after you, OK?’ But even as he spoke, gently, quietly, the child tried to shrink into a hedge, as if it might find a safe place among the rough bare twigs and earth.

  Very slowly, Matt inched his way, his hand out, talking softly in what he desperately hoped was a voice of reassurance. The child continued to shrink from him and now it turned its face away from him out of fear.

  It was a girl. She was perhaps four years old. She was filthy, she had smears of blood on her arms and legs. Her long, fine, fair hair was matted to her scalp. She was completely naked.

  There was silence and stillness and fear for long minutes before the child lurched forward, the hedge catching at her again as she moved and drawing fresh pinpoints of blood, and then she was clinging to Matt, climbing up him like a terrified small animal and pressing her little body to him. He put his arm round her carefully and edged backwards down the path. She did not move, only clung fast to him. Matt hurried across the road, back into the house, calling to Jess. But she had already seen him through the window and only seconds later, blue lights turning, the police car stopped outside.

  Two

  MAY 2007

  Year 2 at St Luke’s Primary School had been talking about Things I Like and Things I Don’t Like, as part of the week’s topic on food and drink. Sue Norwood had found it informative. Most of the likes were as expected – sweet things, crisps, sometimes the odd grape – and the dislikes she could have predicted – milk, green vegetables, stew, runny egg. The next part of the topic would be more challenging – why we should try the things we don’t like again, in case we find we do like them after all. Why we shouldn’t eat too many sweets, even if we like them very much. Why our bodies need a variety of foods, including green vegetables … they would dutifully chant the ‘dislikes’ list and promise to try them again, go home and forget all about it. They would still come to school each morning carrying a half-empty pack of sticky sweets and an egg would never pass their lips. Some of them had even picked up on the words ‘wheat’ and ‘dairy’ in the same breath as the words ‘allergy’ and ‘intolerance’.

  But they were still one of the best classes she had ever taught, alert, funny, loyal to one another and relatively well behaved. One or two had problems, including the boy who still wore nappies and the girl who never spoke, problems which were not easy to solve, and ought to involve the parents.

  Sue sighed. She knew that the parents of the boy who still wore nappies would never come through the school gates, let alone come to see her.

  The silent child was sitting at the far end of the second table now, head bent to the paper so that her face was barely visible. Glory Dorfner. There were some colourful names in Years 1 and 2 but what parent called their child ‘Glory’? And why not? she asked herself smartly. Better than … well, better than quite a few.

  The classroom was quiet, apart from the odd sniff, cough and shuffle. They were drawing and labelling with some glee six things they disliked to eat or drink. She stood behind Alfie Starman. His ears needed a wash, but his careful picture of a cabbage was very good indeed and she said so. Alfie glanced round, flushed with pride and pleasure. Rikki O’Mara kicked him in the shin. But, as Rikki would have said, if challenged, ‘in a good way, Mrs Norwood’. She had a soft spot for Rikki.

  Glory bent her head even further and her arm was curved across the paper to hide it. Sue waited a moment. She could feel the child’s tension.

  ‘May I see?’

  Glory shook her head slightly.

  ‘Shall I guess?’

  The child was absolutely still.

  ‘You don’t like – chips?’ Shouts from all sides, arms waving. Everyone liked chips. ‘All right, I know. Chip pictures, all of you.’

  Much giggling.

  ‘But maybe Glory doesn’t like chips.’

  Silence.

  ‘I think you don’t like – tea?’

  Silence.

  ‘Tomatoes?’

  Sue did not continue. She waited a moment, went round three others, looking, admiring, querying. Then got a spare low chair and sat next to Glory. But the child was immovable. She said nothing. Would not lift her arm.

  It was early evening before she finally opened the big folder containing Year 2’s work, setting the pile on the table next to a box of gold paper stars. Alice was marking Year 12 English essays, swearing from time to time.

  ‘OFFS, Damian Cross, try reading the text.’

  Sue smiled, and turned over the next sheet.

  For a second, she thought it had ended up in her folder b
y mistake, except that she could not possibly imagine how.

  Glory could barely write and what she did manage was still in mirror-writing. Well, that would sort itself out, it always did.

  ‘I don’t like …’ was in smudged dark pastel, large letters copied in almost violently.

  Sue felt her face flush as she looked at the drawing.

  Then she called Alice over.

  ‘Police,’ Alice said almost immediately.

  ‘What on earth can they do?’

  ‘Or family welfare officers … NSPCC? I don’t know, but you’ve got to show this to someone.’

  ‘Maybe Glory’s parents …’

  Alice gave her a look.

  ‘No, you’re right.’

  ‘Take it to Eleanor first thing, cover your back. Let her decide.’

  Alice went back to the essays on To Kill a Mockingbird, muttering as usual about wishing they could read a more challenging novel, vowing yet again to start them on Great Expectations the moment they were done with the set text.

  Glory’s picture seemed to come in front of every one of the others that she looked at. She gave up. Turned on the news.

  ‘I wonder if they’ve found out about that little girl yet?’

  Alice just nodded, head down in her essays.

  ‘Look at me,’ Sue said, hands on the table in front of her.

  Alice looked.

  ‘I’m seriously worried about this child. I mean it, Al.’

  ‘I know, hon, I’m sorry. And so you should be.’

  ‘I’m going to the police station now.’

  ‘Want me to come with you? I can leave these.’

  ‘No, it could take half the night. I’ll be fine. Finish those. I’ll ring you.

  Three

  SEPTEMBER 2007

  It seemed such a little time ago. They’d often gone out, had a drink at the Ox, met friends for bingo, a walk to the Hill when the evenings were light, even a spin in the car to one of the village pubs. They’d gone to a film occasionally, had a fish-and-chip supper on the way back. Having no children, sorry though they both were, meant a bit more money for them to enjoy treats together. Tom had worked hard all his life, she’d had part-time work so that she could be in, with his tea on the table, when he got home.

  Jean Mason stood waiting for the kettle to boil. Such a little time ago. She remembered everything. And Tom remembered nothing. Most days now he didn’t even remember her. Most days there seemed no point in even going to see him because it upset them both. He kept asking her who she was and why Jean hadn’t been to visit him, she couldn’t think of a thing to say to this man she no longer knew. This wasn’t Tom, the Tom she’d known since they were both eleven, the person she’d shared her entire adult life with, day in, day out. So who was it?